The Ultimate Battle

I have a daily battle with God. Not with the elusive "all-knowing" being that no one can feel, hear or see, but the One who is ALWAYS there. The One who sits behind my eyes, curls up in my ears and who stands on my heart like a boulder.

Mostly we battle about the usual things - politics, religion, sex. But lately its been about me. Like, my soul, my joy, and my fears. The One seems to know what it is that I want, what it is that I search for like a moth in the night. And I try with all my stuburness and fortitude to ignore the truth that encircles me. But then it sits at my feet and I cannot ignore it any longer for I trip on it daily and it takes my feet right out from under me. Its only here when I'm on my knees that I admit that God has won one more battle. And that's what it is - a battle. A constant fight for what I feel is mine and what God knows is His.

And so the Ultimate Battle continues.