The Long Way Around

I got engaged a few weeks ago....... I SAY WHAT???!!!! Crazy, I know. I thought my post-secondary education was a large debt, but all the bets laid years ago that I would die a crazy old spinster will lock me in bankruptcy for a long time to come! And that's totally ok with me.

I was introduced as a fiance tonight, I can only imagine the spins I'll get the first time I'm introduced as a wife. Life is funny. It hits you at crazy times that when you thought you had it all figured out you were sorely wrong. I just happened to end up better off than I ever thought I would, for whatever reason.

People talk about getting second chances or being able to change their stars. I call it grace. I don't know why I've been blessed with such a deep and true love in my life cuz God knows that I haven't lived a life deserving of such. But it's not about getting what you deserve.....

My sister told me that the song my the Dixie Chicks called "Taking the Long Way Around" reminds her of me. I laughed and then cried a little when I listened to it the first time. One of the lyrics goes:

"Well, I never seem to do it like anybody else
Maybe someday, someday I'm gonna settle down
But I've always found my way somehow
By taking the long way around"

This is more true than I'm probably willing to admit. I've definately done things my way in a sense, and I certainly never saw myself as the 'settling down' type, but when I think about marriage and all that it entails I don't see it as settling down. Quite the opposite to be honest, in fact I think it will be the craziest adventure I have ever embarked on, and I've done some pretty crazy things in my life.

I still feel young, really young. A baby really. And I still feel there are so many things that I haven't seen or heard or done and I still believe I'm only half of the person that I am capable of being, the only difference is that I have this really amazing person who wants to share all that with me. And I know that I couldn't get to where I want to go without him. That's cool shit!

I still can't believe it and sends me into a rage of laughter when I think of all that I have experienced in my short life, all the times I've vowed NEVER to marry, the fact that I'm now engaged and my damn wisdom teeth have just started to show!

Life is funny and wonderful and shocking all at the same time. Just never think you know it all cuz you'll wake up one day and realize that you had it all wrong and all the things that happened in between can hurt when trying to get back to where you started - and that's the long way around.